हेल्लो
that Hindi button is pretty sweet.
my rooms a mess n i dont feel like cleaning it.
in fact i dont feel like doing anything.
निक
what am i going to do.
i have so much homework, and a newspaper article to write.
its so hard not having a car to use.
हेल्प
i hate to be a burden to my friends.
but i feel like one right now.
i think im just going through that teenage depressed stage.
लोवे
i cannot like him right now. of all the guys.
i don't want to think about next year.
im so scared of everyone leaving.
i don't want to grow up.
सुच्कुम्ब
im actually feeling kinda sick of valentines day
as many gifts as i may get.
its all bogus.
i want the real thing

Dear Queen Bee,
I have a problem.
there are five guys who are "in love with me"
and I like them all. is that possible?
i know i should think myself lucky
but it feels like more of a curse
if only one guy liked me then choosing would not be a problem.
but now if i choose one the other four will be lost
it sounds shallow
but i think selfish is a better word


All i want is to be friends
but i know if i tell them that
we will be friends,
The kind that passes each other in hallways
without looking at each other.
The kind that smiles politely in group conversations
but never talks to you one on one.
so i go on because i cannot bear to loose another friend.
And then my one real guy friend,
I have fallen for.
But he has no clue
and i cannot tell him for fear of ruining our friendship.
What should I do??
- Unsure
Dear Unsure,
You really have dug yourself into a hole.
It sounds like you are not completely satisfied with any of the guys you spoke of.
My advice is don't settle.
You are worth more than that.
But leading guys on is deceptive and unkind.
Gently tell them how you feel and hope for the best.
If you have truly fallen for the guy that is your friend then the question is:
are you willing to risk your friendship?
That is a decision that i cannot make for you.
but long as you follow your heart I believe that you will do the right thing.
-Queen Bee

"undercover lover"

Valentines day is coming!!
4th favorite holiday.
looks like im going to be single this year. :)
i guess i should b longing for some prince charming and what not
yuck.
from my experience valentines day is more fun when i don't have a boyfriend.

funny how much a new hair cut can change my perspective on life.

grades and other such rubbish

My parents just told me that i am going to have to
quit gymnastics because of my grades.
thats rubbish.
if i was a cusser here is where i would do it.
my grades are awful.
in fact it feels like my life is awful right now.
why can't they ask me to quit some i hate like choir. or newspaper.
gymnastics is like my only hope in the Day.
without that?....grades.
i don't give a damn
so tomorrow i'm supposed to bring donuts for the class. great.
something that i normally would love to do.
now all i can see if me trying to act happy go lucky when all i'm thinking is someone please shoot me.
although i think i've become pretty good at pretending.

the worst part is, i don't do anything in gymnastics.

a new leaf

so i finally got a blog.