ok so my life is not as perfect as i tell my self.
in fact it feels as if everything is hanging by a frayed string.
i do just enough to get by.
i cant live like this
i have made up my mind that i do not want to be like my dad.
and i dont any friends like him.
im not sure anymore.
is it that im just so awful that noone can talk to me without getting mad?
i think so. but i don't know how to stop.
i push people away because i am afraid of rejection.
Joylyn's cat just died.
she got it spayed.
and then it died
it makes me so mad at the carelessness of the doctors.
she was pregnant too.
thats 5 lives.
life isn't worth living unless it is for others
Ive lost my motivation.
please.
Help me find it??
1 comment:
Andrea, you're so amazing!! You stay strong even when all the odds are against you. Gosh, some things seem hopeless...but ya gotta know we can get past anything! Don't think your awful...cuz that is absolutely wrong! Everyone needs to just take control of themselves and their actions. Everyone is gona end up feeling like crap if things don't change. Sometimes you have to "be the change you want to see in the world"...so my best advice is to be that kind of change.
Motivation seems to have been absent all school year for most of us. I guess I'm lucky...I've found out I can make it for quite a while w/o motivation...but I know it's not the way we should live. Gotta figure that one out.
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