and then im thinking.
what if someone i write about reads it?
WHO CARES.
Andrea, honestly no1 is going to read this
no1 even knows you have 1
except for the select few you told.
im so used to talking in riddles and codes.
i dont think i actually know how to tell someone exactly how i feel.
i'm always afraid that any info i give will be used against me.
and it will.
ive always observed people and tried to figure them out.
but i cant even figure myself out.
why am i so afraid to fall in love.
ive never had a broken heart
but ive broken many.
i want to want to fall in love.
does that make sense?
i don't think i'm capable of it.
its not that i don't love people.
i love everyone. a lot.
maybe thats why i have so many problems.
the things(and people) i cant have are always the ones i want the most.
i almost don't want him to like me because
im afraid as soon as he starts pursuing me i'll loose interest.
funny he is so used to having girls want him that he takes them for granted.
sounds familiar.
yuck.
i think im going to delete.
and then empty the trash.
hah
2 comments:
That's funny. I don't want to want to fall in love. I wish I could be content just casually dating without having this need to love somebody.
Enjoy your freedom while it lasts.
Hey Andrea! I didn't know you had a blog. But I totally agree. I always want what I can't have. My problem is that I convince myself that I am in love and then everything gets messy. I also get Ben's comment. I have always wanted to not feel the need to love and be loved, and if you have it, hold on to it. I'm not saying don't fall in love if there's an opportunity, but you know what I mean. Stop by my blog and comment sometime. :)
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