the Storm within

This blog is for Joylyn.



"so, this is me living my life."




The green before the rain.-- is not a quote but if it was it would be my favorite.

when you can smell the storm coming.
outside the grass swaying back and forth
an iridescent shade of green.
the leaves can be heard whispering,
slowly crescendoing into urgent song.
and then the rain.
longing.
to become the storm
soaking into my skin. melting
running down my face.
then there is nothing left
take me with you
into the ravaging winds
the murderous clouds
give me clarity.

You have enemies? Good.
That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.
~Winston Churchill

If we discover a desire within ourselves that nothing in this world can satisfy;
we should begin to wonder if, perhaps, we were created for another world.
~C.S. Lewis


I don't know what the future holds, but I know who holds the future.
~Billy Graham


Love is a friendship caught on fire.
~Northern Exposure


I've spent so much time thinking about all the answers to the problem,
that I forget what the problem *actually* was.
~Claire Colburn[Elizabethtown]



Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world,
are the ones who do.
~Jack Kerouac


Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. &&
its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring <3
~Marilyn Monroe


Content makes poor men rich;
discontent makes rich men poor.
-Ben Franklin

People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel. -Maya Angelou

the opposite of love is not hatred but indifference.
-Elie Wiesel

If fifty million poeple say a foolish thing,
it is still a foolish thing. -Anatole France

Love for the joy of loving and not for the offerings of someone else's Heart.
-Marlene Dietrich

To the dull mind all of nature is leaden.
To the Illuminated mind the whole world sparkles with light.
-ralph Waldo Emerson

I am looking for a lot of men who have an infinite capacity to not know what can't be done.
-Henry Ford

there are two ways of exerting one's strength:
one is pushing down, the other is pulling up.
-Booker T. Washington

Love never Known

She always did the right thing
so worried about reputation.
he was a flirt, didn't care.
so naive she fell so hard
of love so unaware.
they knew it would not last.
4 years she didn't tell.
a high school love never known
so scared of rejection never knowing acception
now the chance has gone and past
and she can move on at last.

its not you, its me.

Oh Blog,
i have forsaken you.

My life is just so busy as it is.

Our relationship just is not as important as it once was.

believe me when i say its not you its me...
Er.. and then theres this guy.. or maybe a couple.

Im sorry! i know you are more important
but the chemistry just isn't here.
you always listen but never speak

i need someone who i can talk to.

to put it bluntly theres just no sex appeal
i cant even see you!

All that said.
you are still the only one who can understand me.
and i come back to you once again. :)

oh love

You were such a surprise an unexpected gift.
said i was pretty and i believed it.
not really used to all this attention.

told myself i don't deserve you
and this is just a phase
could i get used to being loved the right way
i want to argue but there is nothing to say
oh love i think i'm ready ...

Freedom!

the weirdest thing just happened.
i just realized that all those annoying crushes are gone!
im free!!! it is the coolest feeling ever.
its like the feeling on the last day of school with the whole summer ahead of me.
yup thats how it feels not to have a crush on ne1.

Oh, to my dearest friend nick.



Once there was this boy.
he was always out to destroy
never did he think that it might annoy.
his hair was the color of chocolate
many times he acted like a rat.
it's prolly cause he never had a cat
many secrets he does hide
so stay away from his bad side

One day came a dinosaur with a star on its head
and a stitch for a mouth.
she saw this boy with a mop on its head
and hole for a mouth
her he made his victim
she even met his friend named Tim
He always followed his every whim
and boy his hair needed a trim
Many boys she had known
but none quite like this one.
so she said i will befriend
..even till the end
for words are things that we can mend.